Broadcasts Of Our Soul | MKE Year 3 Week 21

Our greatest barriers are the conflict within our own minds. Peace and abundance is first found in the heart of the individual, and the Law of Attraction brings back to us what we put out to the Universe.

I am very blessed and highly favoured – thinking good thoughts, finding the silver linking, having a HAPPY day, always. To master self-control and self-governance I will myself forward with positivity.

during Week 5 of the Master Key System, we were reminded that power is contingent upon the proper use of the power within us; therefore I cannot grow bigger until I embrace what I have already created and share with the world my personal credo along with the cornerstones upon which it is built. Applying my ‘happy’ filter to every experience allows me to respond, rather than react to situations.

While I cannot control what happens around me I can control how I respond to it.

Calming my breath.

Calming my heart rate.

Calming my mind.

I am smart enough to know my own mind. I know I can control it and I KNOW I can create a different reality. My thinking has and will continue to catapult me towards my own greatness.

I am Brave. Selfless. Intelligent. Empathetic. Honest. Kind. Divergent. This is my frequency – my souls’ broadcast.

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What frequency do you resonate at? If you feel like you’re always getting the short end of the stick, it’s time for some serious introspection! Adjust your frequency. The stuff that’s been holding you back – let it go! Your life is worth more than your excuses. Be stronger than your circumstance. Be brave.

Life is 10% what happens to us and 90% how we deal with it.

True story…we create our realities – the good, the bad, and the ugly. Reality, therefore is literally an illusion. If we can create our own realities…why don’t we? For most of us, the root of the problem lies in that we don’t believe in ourselves.

You believed in Santa for like eight years, yet you find it hard to believe in yourself for five minutes?

Somewhere along the way we accepted and applied some form of unconscious self-sabotage…we absorbed ‘lack consciousness’ and limiting beliefs.

…feelings of unworthiness or inadequacy silently consume our soul…

…the lack of self-confidence to pursue our dreams cripples us…

…congested mental bandwidth prohibits dreaming because our frequency is so clogged with relics from the past…

Unknowingly holding them as truths, these subconscious shackles lock us to events, circumstance or people, and because we repeatedly and incorrectly attribute these external factors as though they are the same as ‘who we are’ – and soon we begin to buy what we’re selling regarding lack consciousness – eventually and without fail bringing into our reality that which we don’t want – our reality becomes one of lack instead of the light that is our birthright. Somewhere along the way we become convinced that we’ll ‘get what’s coming to us’ and it seems to be human nature to automatically associate a negative connotation to that sentence. Why do we do that? What if we believe we deserve greatness and expect it to descend upon us in all we do…the world would be such a different place.

lobsters of spreading our wings, we allow society to clip them – we tighten ourselves up emotionally and physically… which drastically constricts the Universal flow of peace we so eagerly want and need.

Deliberate use of the current of manifestation ignites sweet restoration of self, and in turn it consequently and successfully activates peace, prosperity and abundance within the family, home and ultimately, the planet.

Reversing the polarity of limiting belief thought-forms can help free your mind and your soul. Imagine with me for a few moments if you will…

Imagine you have a lot more money than you do right now. How would that transform your own life and the lives of those closest to you?

Imagine you could attract increased wealth – simply by removing the internal blockade thats been keeping you from your Abundance. How would this change your world?

Imagine you could immediately pinpoint your sense of Purpose, and in doing so, begin living your most empowered life. Would this re-awakening of your Spirit invigorate you? Would you live your life differently? What does ‘living on purpose’ look like for you?

The truth is, these are not fantasies for you to imagine, rather realities waiting to happen. YOUR realities. All you have to do is learn to control your own frequency! Exciting stuff, isn’t it!! When you control your frequency, your actions, belief and overall persona will guide your life.

Controlling your frequency – your vibration – is key.

If you send out crazy vibes, crazy vibes is what you’ll get back.

If you send out abundance vibes, abundance vibes are what you’ll get.

Well done is better than well said

The Law of Life

Whatever you give away today or think or say or do, will multiply about tenfold and then return to you.

It may not come immediately, nor from the obvious source, but the LAW applies unfailingly through some invisible force.

Whatever you feel about another, be it love or hate or passion, will surely bounce right back to you in some clear or secret fashion.

If you speak about some person a word of praise or two, soon tens of other people will speak kind words to you.

Our thoughts are broadcasts of our soul, not secrets of the brain, kind ones of happiness, pretty ones; untold pain.

Given works as surely as reflections in the mirror, if hate you send, hate you’ll get back, but loving bring love nearer.

Remember, as you start this day, and duty crowds your mind, that kindness comes so quickly back, to those who first are kind!

Le that thought and this one direct you through each day…The only things we ever keep are the things we give away!

-Jerry Buchanan

However, once you begin to shift your Mindset, your entire experience of this existence begins to change…you become Unstoppable. You start to feel freer in every way. As physical and emotional barriers dissolve new avenues of income and opportunity appear as if by divine intervention without any effort on your part…the natural process of you reconnecting with the Universal State of Flow. Improving your mindset will improve your life by bringing awareness to the Mind / Body / Spirit / Universal Flow connection.


Go ahead – uncover and transform self-imposed limits and redefine and reinvent yourself. Eliminate fear and lack and replace them with self-acceptance and love. Focus on your transformation, surrender to the challenge and let it guide you.

Learn to forgive and heal the past.

Expand your capacity to give and receive.

Embrace gratitude. For everything. All the time.

Starting right now let this be the year that changes everything! Let today be your New Year…there’s still 365 days regardless of how you slice the cake…decide that today instead of ‘one day’ decide that today will be your new ‘day one’.

Be COURAGEOUS…You’ve got this!!

Let me know what you’re going to let go of and what you’re going to focus on so I can cheer you on as well. YES YOU CAN!!

Love, Jen

Big Dreams Have More Magic | MKE Year 3 Week 19

Dream big.

We are the Architect of our own lives. So go ahead and dream big dreams my friends. Don’t let circumstance be the handmaiden of your future. If a 5-year old can become an Astronaut or Fire Fighter, then you can certainly become anything you want as well.

If you’re unhappy in your job…find a new one. If you hate your job and live a life of misery…and you openly (or silently) complain about how miserable you are…that’s the vibration you’re sending out into the world…which means that is the exact thing you end up attracting more of. Ironic, isn’t it.

A job is not your identity – it is what you’re currently doing. A salary is simply the bribe they’re paying you to keep you from pursuing your dreams.

You don’t need a job, you need an income – so do what makes you happy and you’ll be amazed how much money you end up attracting – it’s a Universal Law!

If you can’t quite yet picture your dream, or feel like you don’t deserve the best and the happiest there is to be had…perhaps a small shift in your perception will help:

Emotions are the physical manifestations of our thoughts, so when you feel a negative thought or emotion coming on, find something else to focus on. Something seemingly meaningless…for instance, during this MKE course we are teaching our subconscious to associate shapes and colours with our most sacred desires and the thinking habits – and resulting mindset shifts necessary to become self-directed thinkers helps us reclaim the throne in our own lives.

My shape quickly became a circle. So I did a little experiment at home…in a large vase in the kitchen, I started collecting every circular thing smaller than the palm of my hand that would have otherwise been destined for the recycling bin. The sheer amount of circular objects that pass through my kitchen on a daily/weekly/monthly basis was astonishing…beer or pop cans, salsa jar lids, K-cups, salad dressing flip caps…now each time I toss one in the vase (or see one in the fridge or pantry for that matter), I remind myself of one thing I’m grateful for.

It’s to the point now that I see circles everywhere…and so am constantly reminded of gratitude and the concept of Give More Get More has become part of my DNA.

Circles, circles everywhere – and so is my Gratitude!

Driving…tail lights are nice red circles. Steering wheel and tires are too! Showering…all those bottles have round lids. Lying in bed…smoke alarms on the ceiling. Door knobs. Key rings. Feeding the dogs (their bowls and their kibble). Coins in my purse…

Training your brain is fun (hello, evolution!) and as you get more skilled at it, it becomes hard to see a vehicle as I walk up to it because all I see is my gratitude. Im not driving myself to work, rather I’m immersed in the Universal law of giving and receiving.

There’s no time to be negative and feel sorry for myself…I’m too busy showing gratitude and appreciation for all the good things in my life, and in turn, as promised, and without fail, the Universe is showering me with all kinds of favor!

In MKE week 16 we collectively focused on kindness – amazing how true it is that what we focus on expands! As Earl Nightingale said in The Strangest Secret, we become what we think about!!

It all begins and ends in your own mind. Guard it like a fortress.

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I believe we are put on this planet to accomplish our life’s purpose, and I happen to think that LOVE is a critical component to us finding that destined path. Love is the illuminator. Give up the struggle and the pain will cease. When you clear your head from the negativity you make room to breathe again, to think…to dream!

Remember this…you’ll never get what you want – you’ll only ever get what you can picture.

Put yourself first!

Think happy thoughts.

Stop thinking. Start feeling.


Jen 🙂

What’s Love Got To Do With It? | MKE Year 3 Week 18

My kids and I love watching good movies and listening to good music – so by natural extension, randomly dropping one-liners is kind of our thing. For instance, instead of simply announcing ‘Dinner’s ready…’, I’ll say ‘Oh, oh, oh, sweet child o’ mine…dinner’s ready’.

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Mega Mind is one of our favourites, and the line ‘…and I love you, random citizen’ speaks to so much more than just a giggle from movie night…it epitomizes my mindset and is a major contributing factor to my ‘sunshine and rainbows’ world.

While my kids were growing up, my parenting style was based largely upon my understanding of unconditional love. And truthfully, having this core belief as the lodestone of my parental compass is a huge part of why they survived teenage hood 😉


I learned very early on that it was necessary to have a strong moral compass to keep me on the straight and narrow, in life, but also in parenting.

As a leader – which as parents we are – I strived to do my best to lead by example. Mostly because it’s the right thing to do, but also because everybody knows people won’t do what you say, they’ll do what you do.

Beginning with the end in mind I knew that unconditional love was the key. Having a long-term vision to foster independence and empathy in my kids helped me see past whatever the current struggle was. Keeping things in perspective allowed me to ‘pick my battles’ as they say…

By no means have I been awarded a medal as the Worlds’ Best Mom [though I am pretty sure it’s in the mail], however, I’ve learned a thing or two along the way that helped keep me focused.

Well rounded, magnetic humans was the end-goal, so it was equally important that they become self-directed thinkers. Deep down I knew it would click for them. Eventually.

Some of the lessons included:

Show them how to always give their best and highest effort by always giving my best and highest effort.

Redirect your best self into a positive experience-based teacher –  you’ll be setting a contagious example at the same time.

Rather than lecture about priorities and responsibilities, instil within them morals and values.

Find the good in everything.

We all live in the house, therefore, it’s everyone’s privilege to pitch in around the house.

You catch more flies with honey than vinegar.

Avoid drama by not expending negative energy into being all pissed off about this, that, or the other thing. *”Life is too shorts.” RIP Jaydon Summerfeldt*

Get done what needs to be done, calmly, and from a place of love. This will energize you, rather than drain you while having so many things on your to-do list.

Don’t cut them slack only to hold it over their heads or use it as leverage.

Don’t keep tabs or tally who owes who what because you did some thing on their behalf.

Stick to it – it’s 100% worth it!!

Acceptable: I would like, or may I please have. Not Acceptable: I want.

Above all else, Love unconditionally. Even when you don’t want to or think you can’t.

It is good to be me, and I am very blessed and highly favoured because I have decided to make the best of everything and because I choose to feel the best in everyone.

Well done is better than well said

During a recent performance review at work, my boss was explaining a 5-point self-assessment and made it very clear that he NEVER awards feedback in the Always column. As we approached the part about my attitude, he lifted his head said:

‘I know I literally just said I don’t hand out ‘Always’ ratings…however upon reviewing the attitude and presence you consistently bring to the office, anything less would have been an injustice to you. Well done.

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Sara said to me the other day that her understanding of unconditional love meant doing something for somebody even if she didn’t want to, and doing it before she would do something else for herself in its place.

I explained to her that the true meaning of unconditional love, in fact, is loving someone regardless of what they do; without an agenda or caveat, and for no other reason than because they are who they are and you are who you are.

I’ve often referenced The Eisenhower Matrix when discussing being a good friend, brother, sister, daughter, son etc. to illustrate the difference between Urgent and Important, and how it will often vary depending on who you’re talking to, based on their life experiences.

In this particular instance, Sara was faced with a challenge that was urgent to her friend and while it was important, it wasn’t urgent in her eyes, yet she allowed their-urgency to become her-urgency. As she described the situation in retrospect, the resentment was evident in her voice yet she dismissed her feelings with a shoulder shrug by saying “It’s a good thing I love him unconditionally”.

She wasn’t acting from a place of love, she was acting from a place of guilt. Unconditional love has nothing to do with making yourself available on a whim, or sacrificing your own priorities because someone else can’t get their own ducks in a row.


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In my profession, we hear one saying all the time, so imagine my delight when Sara quoted it back to me at the end of our conversation…asking how it related to her challenge.

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This doesn’t only mean grandiose gestures such as donating a kidney or building homes on a Tsunami-devastated island…helping other people get what they want can even mean helping them achieve 5-extra-minutes-of-sleep or saving the day by bringing a roll of TP to the helpless, stranded person at the end of the hall.

The implementation of unconditional love comes in many forms…including, for instance…doing the dishes.

Have you ever assigned ‘dish duty’ to someone…

yet the sink magically remains full of dirty dishes?

Frustrating, right!?

Doesn’t have to be.

When you do the dishes for somebody else because they didn’t do it, you’re not doing it from a place of love, rather from a place of anger – begrudgingly sacrificing your time [and sanity] because some ass-hat didn’t do the dishes – again. There’s a difference between doing something for someone else in a selfless manner, and being a sucker.

This forces you into second place as far as your own priorities are concerned, and the inconvenience you feel is usually preceded with – or followed very quickly by – feelings of resentment, frustration and/or disappointment.

The toxicity resulting from negative emotions consumes your heart and your mind, torturing you as it resonates throughout your entire being, eventually becoming part of the energy around you, and therefore by extension, the energy or vibe of your home.

Speaking from personal experience, it’s highly unlikely that the dish-ditcher (*cough, cough, Michael*) will leap off the couch when they hear the commotion in the kitchen and race in to take over, apologies in tow. Unconditional love means loving the dish-ditchers even when they don’t do the dishes. They might not appreciate it, but the Universe does if you do it with love.

It’s not about doing the dishes for somebody because they didn’t; it’s about doing the dishes so you they can do something else.

Fundamentally, these two things are the same, at the end of the day, choosing to act with love rather than anger can sometimes mean that

– – you’re the one doing the dishes – –

…yet the feelings, thoughts and emotions you choose to associate with that particular action can’t help but manifest themselves into their physical equivalent in the form of energy, which will – without fail -reverberate throughout your life.

For better or worse.

Therefore, it’s really about doing the dishes so you can do something other than bitch about the dishes not being done.

When you act from a place of love, you set yourself free and everything becomes easier. Subconsciously, we inflict so much unnecessary pain and suffering onto ourselves and those around us. Day after day, these seemingly inconsequential decisions shape our world – stories we tell ourselves about how much we have to do, or why the kids are ungrateful, or how life has stacked the odds against us. By telling ourselves these stories – we concede to a tough life, allowing these tiny battles chip away at our souls – slowly but surely turning what is and should be a dream life, into a real-life horror story.

Simple changes to how you perceive situations…the stories you tell yourself regarding how you feel about your experiences, can and will have a dramatic impact on your life for the better.

It’s not about what did or didn’t happen.

It’s about the feeling you associated to what did or didn’t happen.

Your kids are watching. If you throw a fit about doing the dishes, what sane person would expect them not to throw a fit as well? You know that they say about Monkey’s…

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Acting from a place of servant leadership does not mean you are an actual servant in the Cinderella sense of the word, but rather, it means doing what you do, and doing it with love, regardless. Doing the dishes with love doesn’t mean you love doing the dishes.

When putting love first – even if it means doing the dishes yourself – you act from a place of love; you create the time and space in your schedule so that they can do other things, and your payback is 100-fold…this act of selfless love actually makes time and space in your heart, also!!

Giving without the expectation of reciprocity is very freeing. It’s rare that the Universe will return your efforts to you in the same form.

Instead, maybe the person ahead of you in the drive-thru will pay for your coffee.

Or smile from the next car as you wait at the light.

Or someone will hold the door open for you.

Or shovel your snow.

Or simply say Hi.

Now don’t get me wrong, you may be doing a lot of dishes in the 18+ years that they live at home, but I promise you it’s all worth it when you overhear them talking to someone about acting from a place of love, or when they act selflessly by helping someone else, or that glorious day when you come home and the dishes are actually done, and they even have a glass of wine ready for you because they recognize and appreciate that you had a long day!!

Helping other people with seemingly inconsequential tasks so they can do other things means you are opening your heart to love and by extension, it opens their heart to love as well.

Love is all that is real.

And with love all things are possible.

My wish for you my friends, is that you keep your sinks clear of dirty dishes and your hearts open to the possibility of love in all that you do. I promise you this – you’ll be glad you did!!




All it takes is concentration… | MKE Year 3 Week 16

Manifest your ideal | A ‘how-to’ guide [in progress…]

I’ve worn my ability to multi-task like a badge of honour for as long as I can remember…turns out, what I thought was among my greatest strengths has actually been, perhaps, my greatest weakness.

When focusing on one thing at a time the results are astounding…the quality of work rises, and the task is actually completed faster. A recent Stanford Multi-Tasking Study found that when we multi-task we are actually less organized, retain less information and are unable to filter out distractions. Science has proven that it takes less energy to succeed than it does to fail. Imagine that!

This Quad | Far Quad visual is a pretty accurate (and entertaining) descriptor of how easy it is to get distracted…it personifies the reason why multi-tasking is a trap and how so many people can easily fall into its clutches. Also, it’s funny because it’s true.


 (Wish I knew the origin so I could give appropriate props and accolades to the genius behind this…)

Consider what your old blueprint is telling you…

Why do we continue to do things that we know are not effective?

Why do we keep running on the proverbial ‘Hamster Wheel of Life’?

Enough already.

You control your destiny…and it’s achieved by the tiny steps we take day-in-and-day-out to direct our lives down the path of our choosing.

Charles F. Hannel repeatedly teaches that “Knowledge does not apply itself”…we’ve got to make the application.

John P. Wooden says that a Dream Without a Plan is just a Fantasy.

“All it takes is concentration.” Charles F. Hannel

For all the List Makers out there, the last ‘To-do List’ you’ll ever need is: Plan the work.  Work the plan. Schedule the most important activity FIRST…literally, write it into your schedule.  Actually do the most important activity first. And be nice to yourself.

It’s simple. Focus + concentrate and STOP MULTI-TASKING. Keep distractions separate.  Let go of what you do not need. Instead, focus on the most important activity. Cling to what you do need, and manifest your ideal.

A line that sticks with me from the movie ‘The Help’ is this…

“You are smart.  You are kind.  You are important.”


Nerd Knowledge | MKE Year 3 Week 14

Remember in school, how there were all the groups, the cliques…lines were drawn and there was no fraternizing with the enemy. Labels have changed over the years, but basically there were the Cool Kids, the Book Worms (read: Nerds), the Jocks, the Rebels, the Teachers’ Pet, and the Floaters; who didn’t belong to any one group in particular; and were loosely accepted by all groups because they were neither a threat, nor an advantage.
I was a Floater.
Theatre seatingAs I observed each group hold their ground for the duration as year one morphed into year two, and year two into year three, was that their knowledge – both individually and collectively – didn’t increase with any notable significance…with the exception of the Nerds.
The Nerds were always inventing new things, learning new skills, asking for help and stretching the boundaries; applying logic from one success to the previous failure of another, and in doing so, creating an entirely new concept. After all, bread still existed before someone sliced it.

Learning was thought to be Geeky – but to the Nerds, it was always super cool.

Their ‘wins’ came from trying new techniques – and failing until they succeeded, and they celebrated the acquisition of Nerd Knowledge like it was winning the Big Game, acing a test, or being crowned Prom Queen.
If you fast forward 10-years after High School [any 10-years; any High School], the Nerds have secured their place as ruler. Bill Gates. Nicholai Tesla. Mark Zuckerberg. You get the point.
So, the way I see it, adopting some Nerd Knowledge of my own; studying with the same tenacity as the Nerds’ studied, then I too can morph into a Nerd and celebrate the slicing of my own bread!
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Introspection is one of my favorite things. Time spend in self-reflection – quietly reviewing my life – reflecting, wondering… ‘What am I Missing?‘ fills my cup. So I decided to apply this logic to figuring out how exactly to re-claim my sanity and put my Dragons to rest, once and for all. And it begins with the question I haven’t been able to answer. I need to put my Jennergy in the spotlight…and that begins with the desire to give more. In order to do that, I must first ‘Nerd-up’ my finances; abolish my bad spending habits, live within my means and conquer the infamous ghost who keeps draining my bank account.

It’s been said a time or two that money is the root of all evil. Everybody knows that’s not true. It’s the love of money that is the root of all evil.

If you’re a nice, generous, compassionate person, money won’t turn you into a giant prick, rather, it will simply accentuate your kind soul. Likewise, if you’re a giant prick…well…I’m sure you get where I’m going with this. You see, money simply accentuates that which we already are.

“Every human being who reaches the age of understanding of the purpose of money, wishes for it. Wishing will not bring riches.

But, desiring riches with a state of mind that becomes an obsession, then planning definite ways and means to acquire riches, and backing those plans with persistence which does not recognize failure, will bring riches.”

Think and Grow Rich, by Napoleon Hill, describes the method by which DESIRE for riches can be transmuted into its financial equivalent, consists of six definite, practical steps:

  1. Fix in your mind the exact amount of money you desire. It is not sufficient merely to say “I want plenty of money.” Be definite as to the amount. (There is a psychological reason for definiteness which will be described in a subsequent chapter).
  2. Determine exactly what you intend to give in return for the money you desire. (There is no such reality as “something for nothing”.)
  3. Establish a definite date when you intend to possess the money you desire.
  4. Create a definite plan for carrying out your desire, and begin at once,whether you are ready or not, to put this plan into action.
  5. Write out a clear, concise statement of the amount of money you intend toacquire, name the time limit for its acquisition, state what you intend to give in return for the money, and describe clearly the plan through which you intend to accumulate it.
  6. Read your written statement aloud, twice daily, once just before retiring at night, and once after arising in the morning. AS YOU READ – SEE AND FEEL AND BELIEVE YOURSELF ALREADY IN POSSESSION OF THE MONEY.
These subtle nuances between what we ‘think’ we know, and what actually is, shapes our perception of the world. When we can look at FACTS vs the TRUTHS we tell ourselves, we realize that our realities are nothing more than our perceptions.

Perceptions aren’t reality. Reality is reality.

Our realities are shaped by the feelings we associate (our perceptions) to the situations which we experience. When we realize this we’ve got a chance of living our true Greatness.
Knowledge is power girl

I hope and trust you are living your own Greatness and embracing your inner Nerd – I have Faith in you, I will be your Cheerleader and your Biggest Fan.

Go get your Nerd on.


Thank you for taking the time to read…I look forward to your comments!


What am I missing?? | MKE Year 3 Week 13

I’ve realized something pretty epic…the more I learn the less I actually know. I guess that means I’m succeeding and struggling. A truth that sucks sometimes…in an awe-inspiring kind of way.

For as long as I can remember, I’ve been trying to merge what I’m learning – and un-learning for that matter – with what I’ve been living by…my JennyJenJenCode…my Jennergy.

Feels like I’ve been in an endless battle-of-the-wits between my past and my future. A bizarre, torturous, but yet glorious 2-steps-forward-1-step-backwards kind of dance; a crusade, blinded by ritual and orchestrated upon half truths, hazy directions, and good intentions. Packed with enough misinformation to provide a lifetime of adversity, righteous autonomy [just enough to retain my sanity], and a scattering of Universal favour to remind me I am indeed, Very Blessed and Highly Favoured.

I see now how everything I’ve done in the past has shaped my current reality, and for that I’m so great-ful [both great, and full of gratitude].

Yet I feel like I’ve been under a perpetual fog for a decade and a half. I seem to be able to master anything and everything I touch – yet I have no idea what truly drives me.

I’ve become so astute at figuring out the correlation between all things…connecting the dots…it continues to amaze me that I still can’t figure out what the hell I’m doing here, on earth?? Shit.

Every once in a while, I am graced with quick, temporary glimpses of purpose, fleeting moments of fulfilment that have the power to fill you up again – if you let it. If I let them. I promise I will let them.

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Why can’t I picture what I want?

Why can’t I narrow down what I am working towards?

Why am I stuck?



Marianne Williamson had it right; it really is my light, not my darkness that scares me the most.

We are never prepared for what we expect. — James Mitchner

So, what am I pretending not to know?

If the future me doesn’t know, and doesn’t care about my history…she doesn’t know what I’ve struggled with – doesn’t know what I am struggling with…the future me simply moves forward, free of bias or limitations. Then, sadly, it is my current self who brings all the baggage from my past along for the ride. My future, in and of itself, is baggage free.

So as I walk you through the evolution of my thoughts, so too, you will witness the evolution of my DNA for once I realize that I know what I once did not know, the old me is no longer.

What do I want to be known for?

What’s my Legacy? My Dynasty?

I enjoy helping people, I enjoy leading people, helping them think. This constitutes a big part of my DNA. We should choose ourselves who we believe in…I believe in myself. Developing more confidence throughout the MKE course and realizing I’ve got to think for myself! If nothing is happening towards my DMP, it means I’m doing nothing towards my DMP. Very simple. Harsh reality. Truth really does hurt.

It fills my cup when people spend time with me and feel better about themselves as a result.  I need to remember that I am having an effect on other people…there’s no logical explanation of the ripple effect, but big or small, I am having an effect.

Constant thoughts of gratitude are a great form of beauty. You can put yourself in the way of beauty – there’s a sunrise and a sunset everyday and you can choose to be there for it.

Talking about my personal evolution…thinking for myself…how beautiful is that. By the end of 2018, this sentence will ring true and pure for me, but right now it’s pretty scary.

Once I let go and expected that I could do anything that I wanted, it became very easy to say I LOVE YOU in the mirror 100x daily.

Your intuition – the way in which the Universe speaks to you.

Your happiness is in direct proportion to the degree you listen to your intuition and follow it. The degree to which you suppress your intuition and live a lie is the degree to which you will suffer and experience misery. You choose.

Sometimes, you will not be able to see where you are going in life—clearly. But know your Soul’s inner GPS will guide you home. You will find that you will be the right person, at the right place, at the right time, doing the right thing, rightly. 🙂

How many times have you had a gut feeling about a person or a situation?

An innate confidence that you know what needs to be done?

How many times have you not listened to that voice?

We have all done that.

Yet, we all have that sense and inner guidance. Not listening to it is costly, often more than not costing you your happiness.

Intuition is the sense that arises from the deepest part of your soul. Intuition is the pure impulse of your Soul; nudging you in the direction of your highest path. Intuition is beyond your mind, your logic…your emotions. Emotions are often rooted in your past conditioning…forming personality and character.

If you’re willing to be honest, truly, when faced with a tough decision, often times we will instinctively know what to do. Yet, we constantly question ourselves:

What if I am wrong?

What should I do?

What if it doesn’t turn out like I plan?

How can I be sure?

Let’s discuss the curse of the ‘I don’t know’ excuse. Truth is, if you confess your deepest truth, then you no longer have any excuses not to move forward or take action. Immediate action.

What don’t you want to acknowledge or admit?

What are you convincing yourself you are confused about?

Forget all that. Instead, trust your intuition. Think HAPPY thoughts.

You know what to do.

What causes one thing to flourish, or to die, or to take another course. Everything has taught me something. Everything I’ve done are the  exact things that got me to where I am today. And I wouldn’t change a single thing about my journey for there’s no way to know what makes one thing to lead to another.

For everything my path has taught me. And for everything I couldn’t yet know. I won’t even know where I am going until I get there. My life, like all lives, mysterious, irrevocable and sacred. So very close. So very present. So very belonging to me. And how wild it was to let it be.

-WILD (a movie I discovered on Netflix late NYE 2017)

Gratitude Attack | MKE Year 3 Week 12

Gratitude is a cause, not an effect.

I’ve discovered that the more I give, the more I get…and having a GIVE MORE GET MORE mindset continues to open a world of possibilities.

Gratitude is not a one way street.

To give freely, we must also be open to receiving.

While I am happy to help others, I often reject the offer to accept the same help I so willingly hand out. By not accepting help I am blocking the gratitude flow…preventing it from completing the rotation.

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For example…I give and give, and do and do for everyone any chance I get, yet when I have the change to receive help, I tend to immediately reject it. For I feel guilty, as though I’m imposing on other people…ridiculous, I know.

This is simply fear…False Evidence Appearing Real (FEAR).

Fear of asking for help? Fear of appearing needy? Perhaps fear of needing help?

Still learning about myself, aware of the feeling and can now identify when I react this way. It is after all, a reaction, not a response.


Allow the abundance to flow back to you.

As I was telling my friend Carrie about this story, she questioned why I wouldn’t simply accept help and allow others to return the favour? She pointed out that surely I had earned a break, if for nothing other than the enormous amount of service I provide to others, always without hesitation. She went on to enlighten me that I’m cutting off the flow of abundance by allowing myself to be overcome by guilt rather than simply being accepting of the Universal law of giving.

This realization hit me like a tonne of bricks right to the side of the head…suddenly a bunch of things made total sense.

Welcoming abundance and receiving gratitude are part of being Very Blessed and Highly Favoured. I promise to embrace the help that is offered with grace and humility so as to no longer block the flow of abundance.

I welcome abundance in and from all directions, with an open mind and a grateful heart. So grateful that my friend took the time to highlight how ridiculous it is for me to pick and choose how gratitude will work…

I’ve got to let go…

I will let go…

…I have let go.

Gratitude, Ya’ll. 

Having gratitude and expressing gratitude to people are different.

So many people have trouble accepting compliments. Many people will wonder if you’re dying when you tell them you’re grateful – they’re simply not used to hearing it. That, my friends, is a sad state of affairs. We all have greatness inside us. I believe I have been put on the planet to help draw out peoples’ greatness.

When was the last time you were grateful for having 10 fingers and 10 toes?

Homework: Find three people in your life and tell them – physically pick-up the phone and call them, or write a card not a text – tell them why you’re grateful or thankful for them. There’s something about the written word…and something equally as powerful about the spoken word.

Feel gratitude for everything. You’ll be happy you did 🙂

I had the pleasure of meeting a wonderful and inspiring leader, Muzafer just over a year ago. He explained that he wears gym shorts under his suits while he’s on stage presenting because it reminds him of his roots when people clap give him accolades.

He described it as keeping him grounded, and reminds him that he’s still the kid from humble beginnings. His lesson: Be grateful. Do things to keep you grounded, find ways to remind yourself daily.

Never forget where you’ve come from, or you’ll be on your way back.

Create and maintain a vital S P I R I T. You need to make sure you are giving yourself opportunities to find stillness. Do things every day that bring you joy, keep you grounded, and feed your soul. Sharing with others, giving to others, giving your all – these activities, while enriching, take a lot out of a person. Even a day that is filled with meaningful, fun activities can be tiresome. There can be no restoration without rest so don’t forget to make time to rest, to sleep, to recover.




Red Pencil Epidemic | MKE Year 3 Week 8

Humans are born with two fears – the fear of falling, and the fear of loud noises – the rest, we learn (or rather, we learn to accept). 

For some reason, our school system seems to get off by telling us how bad we’ve done, rather than celebrating our victories [however small or insignificant they may seem]. Take any spelling test any kid has ever taken…on a list of 10 words let’s say you get 8 right and 2 wrong — we never see 8 green checkmarks, but rather 2 red X’s that stand out on the page like a punch in the face.

image-23 Don’t get me wrong, I hold teachers in the highest regard, but I can’t wrap my head around the constant negativity focus. Can you imagine how different the world would be if we were praised with 8 green check marks instead of 2 red X’s?!!!

Fear does not promote learning. Our mental habit patterns are permeated with it. We exist in a dull ache of consciousness (according to Marianne Williamson). We’re just so programmed to live in fear that it becomes our default.

Our emotions flow from our thoughts, not the other way around. The depth of our wounds keeps us mired in them, keeps us stuck in a river of mediocrity. When we emotionalize situations in our mind, we intensify the pain. The longer we do this, the more comfortable we become with the pain, and then without warning or apology we become so comfortable with the pain that we subconsciously seek out new ways to create it. *Quite the gut punch, right!*

Fear lives in the past and the past has nothing to do with the present. 

The situation is not the enemy – the feelings we’ve attached to the situation are the enemy. Our perception of the past keeps us stuck in it…hidden emotional knives puncture us as we replay the feelings over and over again – in order to heal we must let go of the fear. Change only occurs when you make the decision to heal. It’s like reprogramming your emotional computer. You must consider the possibility of another possibility. What if what we perceive as fear is actually excitement or inspiration?! Did you know that the neuro pathways produced by fear versus the neuro pathways produced by excitement are only one or two neurons apart?? 

Healing occurs in the present, not the past. 

True Story: There is no such thing as a grey sky – the sky is always blue, sometimes it’s just covered in grey clouds. 

If you want to live a life unlike the past…what you do, or don’t do, determines your growth. The world changes when we change. We must take on a more gentle perception of how we experience our experiences. We cannot fight fear – we must replace it with LOVE. We must embrace an enlightened love if you want to live a life unlike the past. 

What you do, or don’t do, determines your growth.

There is no need to live in fear. 

The key to happiness is the decision to be happy. 

When you release fear, a whole world of opportunity will unfold at your feet. When you’re ready to forgive anyone or anything that has hurt you, an affirmation I’ve used to help accomplish this is

‘I forgive you _______________ , and I release you to the Holy Spirit.’

Be your own green pencil! 

Think HAPPY thoughts. 

Lead with LOVE.




Here’s what moved me this time last year…MKE8 | Directing my Valkyrie


The Watched Pot | MKE Year 3 Week 3

Heightened awareness is my ultimate outcome of participating in this MKE course.

We are masterminding to become self-directed thinkers.

I am so honoured to be a part of their journey, and along for my own in the process.

Our observation has a direct effect on our world … how we see things is filtered through our experiences, our bias, our intellect. No two people experience this life in the same way. We have the opportunity to frame every experience to our benefit; however depending on what we’re made of, many people mindlessly fall victim to their circumstance, while others persevere as the victor – as if in spite of it.

Everybody knows the old saying ‘a watched pot never boils’…but here’s the thing – despite knowing that it actually does boil, we still repeat the saying…blindly just throwing it out there with no real purpose.

11e400f3-2189-4c5a-90e4-1e083ed8dc9bTrue Story…a watched pot does in fact boil! The problem is that humans lack the required stick-to-it-iveness to watch it for long enough – it’s the 6-second attention span curse.


We need to develop one habit: practicing the skill of intense observation.

We must delete un-truths imposed upon us by other people.

We have to let go of the fallacies fed to us by sheeple.

This wasn’t the image I wanted – but it’s funny and cute.

How can it be that the same water that softens the noodle, hardens the egg? It’s the same pot of water…yet two completely different outcomes. Let’s say the egg represents someone full of negativity who is unwilling to change, and the noodle represents someone full of negativity but chooses to accept the possibility of a different possibility – and they begin deleting un-truths. 

Same old thinking...same old results


The same is true for humans…are you going to be the egg and become (or remain) hard and crass, or are you the noodle – flexible and forgiving?

Perspective Shift

Fact: There are 86,400 seconds in a day. The average persons’ attention span is 6-10 seconds – which means the brain is required to re-focus – or re-un-focus 8,640-14,400 times per day.

Once we’ve decided to become open to building a better life, and committed to the hard mental labor required to achieve it, we can fit the necessary effort into the seconds in our day…the ones we’ve been wasting, mindlessly. Everybody is busy. I get it. Changing our mentality does not take a tonne of time – we simply have to make it a priority.

All change begins in the mind. By re-designating our pockets of time – we can literally reprogram our existence. The Greatest Salesman, by Og Mandino and The Master Keys, by Charles F. Haanel are books packed with valuable insight and knowledge – since knowledge does not apply itself, these are the thoughts I am choosing to focus on as I reprogram my brain so I can experience life differently:

  • Consciously creating my day – reminding myself: Today I begin a new life.
  • Committing to the process of creating a new life! I am worthy. 
  • Do It Now. DO IT NOW. DO IT NOW!! How could anything be more important?!!
  • Become a vigilant watchman of what I allow into my subconscious…
    • The Master Keys 2-14: it is often true that conditions of fear, worry, poverty, disease, in harmony and evils of all kinds dominate us by reason of false suggestions accepted by the unguarded subconscious mind. All this the trained conscious mind can entirely prevent by its vigilante protective action. It may properly be called “the watchman at the gate” of the great subconscious domain.”
  • I promise to question other peoples’ truths before allowing them to take residence in my brain…
    • 2-16: …”The subconscious mind does not engage in the process of proving. It relies upon the conscious mind, “the watchman at the gate”, to guard from mistaken impressions.
  • The subconscious mind cannot tell the difference between what we physically experience versus what we mentally experience…therefore, creating a new life begins in our mind.
    • 2-23: The subconscious mind cannot argue controversially. Hence, if it has accepted wrong suggestions, the sure method of overcoming them is by the use of a stronger counter-suggestion, frequently repeated, which the mind must accept, thus eventually forming new and healthy habits of thought and life, for the subconscious mind is the seat of Habit.
  • I promise to remember that everything is going to work out in the end…if it isn’t working out yet, it isn’t the end.

Thank you for joining me on this journey – I’d love to hear your feedback.

All my best,


See what moved me this time last year – MKE3 | Relinquishing Control


MKE10 | Super Hero Complex

Automatic strength. The kind I don’t have to negotiate with my body – or my mind -for…I simply will it, on demand. Endless reservoirs of back up power, available at the blink of an eye.

This is the strong me. The kind of ‘lift-a-car-off-your-kid’ in an emergency kind of innate strength. Not a front, rather truly a part of who I am. While this strength has proven to be available, yet completely exhausting. Calling upon this strength comes with a huge cost – it requires at least 4x the energy expended in order to recover.

In times like this, I find it helpful to remember that This Too Shall Pass.


For as long as I can remember, I’ve had to do it all. My independence streak runs deep. For better, or for worse. Won’t bore you with the details – and I certainly don’t want pity…

Rough childhood would be putting it mildly. Raised my sisters since elementary school. Moved out at 13. Raised my son since I myself, was a child. Working to pay bills. Paying bills instead of being alive. Its become a really bad habit – putting myself second to everything.

Keeping busy being busy. Jumping around wearing so many hats – and I’m not sure exactly why anymore.

So now, I’ve got myself strung so tight…I’ve got this big house that no one can be bothered to help me with. Trying to complete a University degree [failing, quite miserably]. While working way too much because one income simply isn’t enough to maintain a lifestyle – not an overly grandiose or pretentious one either – simply a roof, some food and a vehicle.

There's no way I was born to just pay bills and die

During a temporary lapse in sanity this Spring, I adopted two adorable puppy-brothers (super glad I did though) because they provide enduring Happiness as I deal with the burdens of everyday life.

While slogging through year eight of an exhausting civil-legal following an MVA, which, now forces me to endure chronic, daily, lower body pain – for which, I take extensive pain killers [prescribed, of course]. When those don’t cut it, I get to choose between quarterly cortisone injections, or perhaps medical marijuana in order to be able to walk, to sit, to drive, to sleep…to function without numb fingers or a stabbing pain from my left buttock down to the bottom of my toes. So many exciting options.

As an added bonus, I also have Acne. And Grey hair. Neither are fun, but seeing Sara giggle because she thinks it’s hilarious lifts my spirits. But let’s get serious…teenagers – either awesome or horrible. Not much middle ground there. Somewhere in there…all the house stuff (groceries, banking, Christmas cards, etc.). So, unfortunately, it goes without saying that I don’t often ask for help. Even when people offer help, I’m apt to thank them profusely, then politely decline. Insistently. To a fault.

Stubborn pride…

This is my weakness – which I’ve been [not-so-cleverly] parading around as strength.

I’m learning [the hard way] that what I have perceived as strength for a really long time, is actually my kryptonite.


Thought I’d share that in an effort to spare a you the trouble…

Avoidance is not a strategy, FYI.

When my ‘f^*k-it-bucket’ quota breaches the brim, I shut everything down…finding solace in the darkness and reprieve in the quiet. If I’ve shut you out at some point, been a bad friend and not called, not responded or reached out – I apologize…it’s a glitch in my auto-response, and I’m – finally – aware of it. Thankfully. But perhaps more importantly, I see a way to change it.

ENTER: FORGETFULNESS [usually hangs out with STRESS]

I can go days and totally forget things. We’re talking urgent things. The more I stack on my plate, the worse it gets. Forgetful. Then stressed. Or stressed. Then forgetful. As if the sequence of events matters – they come as a package deal – and collectively, they’re a ticking time bomb.

Money is – unfortunately – the King of my castle; holding my sanity and dreams prisoner.

If the Prince represents the KEY to achieving the life I KNOW I was born to live…unfolding all the answers and solutions to what’s been holding me back…

And the Damsel in Distress represents my oh-so-coveted Autonomy and Legacy…

… then …

The busy things I’ve been filling my life with represent the Vigilant Dragon, guarding who the Castle Keep. Sadly, I am the Dragon.


Sometimes I find life extremely overwhelming – but when I stop and really observe what’s going on…take a mental inventory of all the moving parts.

My next breakthrough is only slightly out of reach, sitting precariously perched atop the pivot-point of the Teeter-Totter of life…the irony of it all…

…is that my weight is on both sides.

What I have done in the past weighs on the low end, versus what I need to do to move forward and bring about new results on the other.

I realize that at the exact moment when I recognize the overwhelm – when I’m about to admit defeat…that very moment is in fact the fulcrum…

…whether I choose to concede and continue hammering out rock solid, gold metal worthy projects for someone else…or…persist until I succeed…and work as hard for myself as I do for other people.



This one I need to negotiate with myself in order draw it out. This is for sure not in my DNA – but I promise you I am trying to write it into my code because I recognize the tremendous power of it all.

When my Greatness begins to shine is exactly when Resistance – the Universal Dream Stealer – throws more obstacles into my path. Relentlessly. Fortunately, I am both knowledgeable and wise when it comes to these old tricks – because I analyze when things seem insurmountable, I can easily recognize patterns.

Over the years, the lessons have proven – again and again – that it truly is darkest before dawn, yet when it seems all light has been extinguished, a flicker still remains – found within the innate strength we talked about earlier.

This is confirmation from the Universe that I’m doing the right things to attract Autonomy and Legacy, verifying I’m on the right path. Because as we determined earlier, it’s always darkest before dawn, and I can say with confidence that the Sun is always shining in my world, so it’s this magical decision between old and new, between stuck and free, between my past and my future – this simple decision is where the magic happens!!

The warrior within takes the lead and carries on. Paying no heed to the crippling circumstance, blissfully ignorant to the seemingly insurmountable odds, instead – like a champion – ploughing through the obstacle course of life…reliable…relentless…victorious. This is one facet of my Valkyrie.


Running around doing all the stuff that isn’t moving me closer to my goals and all I want to be doing is building a secret business watching Tracey suffer a yes or no true residual income meanwhile I’m going to work showing condos my daughters at home contemplating suicide and I’m driving all around and doing all the work and completely neglecting my house and my myself my daughter I’m not there I’m not present as a parent and making somebody else rich doing it.

Enough. This is how I feel about my ability to push through – *Facing the Giants | Death Crawl Scene*

It’s my turn now. I’m going to affix my own mask – or I will be unable to help others achieve their own greatness…not on my back, rather by my side.

Theory that people need identity outside of parent only or kids move out and they go crazy. So what kind of super hero have you been facading as? I REALIZED I don’t need to choose just one response – I simply need to control the extenuating circumstances in my life so that all of my strong suits can operate harmoniously.

I am whole, harmonious, peaceful, happy, humble, caring and kind.

Love Letter From My Future Self

Hey girl, slow down for a second…

I know that you overthink things so this is a reminder from your future self that it’s all going to be alright. Read it often.

Despite some pretty major challenges you’ve managed to wear a smile every damn day, and hey, that’s a victory, right!!! Celebrate that you’re on your way to mastering the world within.

Don’t put so much pressure on yourself. Trust that things will work out. Remember your greatness. The world needs what you have inside you – so wear your happiness like a badge of honour. Embracing your best self shows others how to embrace theirs as well. The world will become a better place as a result.

you are your only limit

I LOVE you. You’ve got this. Keep going.

Whatever you’re doing…stop, right now! Take a deep breath. Close your eyes. Take another breath, but this time, try to not let your chest rise – instead, breathe deeply from your abdomen. Take another breath. And another. Clear your mind. When you’re ready, open your eyes. Look around you. Do you see nature? Go outside and embrace the feeling of the sunshine on your skin. Go touch the leaves. Smell a flower. Listen to the birds sing. Play in the snow. Enjoy the fresh air. Breathe. Be.

Take another deep breath. Ground yourself. Think objectively. Smile. Your eyes dance when you get fired up…let it all out!

The Compass

I’m sure you’ve got a lot going on right now, and that’s good…just don’t lose track of what’s important, what’s worth making time for. Spend time with people you love. That’s first and foremost, always. Hang out with your mom as much as possible, words cannot describe what she has done for you over the years. Also, eat a cookie once in a while.

Some stuff is going to happen to you. You won’t be able to plan for it, fit it into your schedule, or always have someone pick up the phone to guide you through it. You’re going to have to just rely on your intuition, the insights will come. Remember to go with the flow, take it all in…glean lessons from it. Find the positive in every experience in life. You’ve got this.

Trust in yourself. Trust of yourself.

You know how to carry on…hold your head high, shoulders back, you’re ready to take on the world again. Know that whatever decision you made, it was the right one. You’re here now, and you’re exactly where you need to be. Focus on that.

Everything that has happened has lead you to this moment. Don’t try to change anything. Things have worked out exactly as it should be. All the puzzle pieces fit, all the paths will align. All the people were meant to be. All the successes and failures and heartwarming and heartbreaking moments were all worth it. No regrets.

Please never stop holding on to HOPE. It will, at times, cause you pain, but it will also help you get through. I even hope you’re still naively optimistic about the world, if only because it’s better to have a bright outlook than spend the rest of life wallowing in cynicism. You are an ambassador of HOPE…people admire you and it’s important that you keep telling your stories and letting your light shine.

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You know what? I even want you to go through more hardships and struggles because the hardships make us learn and grow, not only about the world and other people, but about yourself as well. They turn us into a stronger and better person, and the adversities we overcome oftentimes become our best testimonies.

I’m sure you’ll figure out a few more things along the way, and I hope you keep asking questions. Lots of them. Your light shines brightly and I hope you hold that close to your heart…don’t let situations, or people for that matter, get you down or shake your purpose.

As you continue to age, you’ll become even more phenomenal. Remember, the goal is to celebrate turning 100 (at least). Take a bite of something delicious and savor every moment. Enjoy what you have in each present moment. Just because it passes doesn’t mean it wasn’t powerful or important. And you’re not silly for believing in it…enjoy every experience. Your eternal optimism and enthusiasm are contagious.

The Magnifying Glass

You learned what love really means and the lengths to which friendship can be tested (and lost). You learned how to treat your body well, and how to honor those around you. Don’t ever settle for the easy way—actually, don’t settle, period! Life is too short. ENJOY IT. ALL OF IT. Really embrace your greatness.

You will have enough time to do everything that you love. Be here now. Hug those around you. Ask them how they are doing, and lock eyes with them as they tell you…truly listen. Be present. Don’t be so busy searching for clues that you miss all the signs. The inexplicable sensation of true connection and understanding is the best feeling in the entire world. You’ve got a lot of time. Your to-do list can wait.

Here’s a reminder of what you already know to be true…

Money is just a number. It comes and it goes. Love is the true currency.

Be who you are and who you want to be. Be the best you. Be gentle with yourself. Be messy sometimes. Let it all go. Embrace what you’re learning and cherish your experiences because they are divinely fated, truly. You were and are, have been and always will be yourself, and that is what matters above all.

Tell your children you love them…a lot. They are incredible humans and deserve to hear your praise, and often. You’ve raised your kids right, spent time with them, taught them how to properly shake someone’s hand. You’ve instilled values in them, helped them set goals (both lofty and reasonable), and provided them with experiences, insight and have role-modelled to them the life skills to keep their moral compasses on the straight and narrow. Trust that time will continue to massage their personalities and believe that above all else, they love you.

What YOU Focus on Expands

I promise to remain diligent and focused on designing my life so that I can…

Dream Bigger, because BIG dreams have more magic.


Travel the world with Mike + Sara, paid for by my profession.

Be ruled by my heart, rather than my bank account.

Time LIBERTY to be present for my family.

Healthy Body. Healthy Mind.


Consistently say YES YOU CAN to myself!

Create a strong blueprint.

Design a bulletproof future for those I LOVE.

Positive internal dialogue.

Show my family how to WIN!

Most importantly, remember that the current version of yourself loves you…

and that is not going to change.

Always remember that.

You’ve got the most epic dogs, sweet friends, and an above average family. You are blessed to live in one of the most beautiful places on earth, and you’re in the best shape of your life thus far, so that’s great. You’ll love what’s to come!

Remember that crossroads are exciting…yet temporary. You been handed a pretty full deck and you survived…no, you’ve thrived. You always find a way. You are resilient and resourceful.

But you know, I hope you had some time for fun. Go…now, take a world class vacation…for you, from you, out of your sweet bank account. You’ve earned it. Keep killing it. Like that 35-day cruise you took in 2015…go and explore, be a Curious Discoverer. Take time to fulfill your hearts deepest and most earnest desires. Nothing else matters.

Happiness is a choice

A few good life rules…

Pick up the phone. Make some plans. Get outside, even when the couch is calling. Camp in the woods. Build a fire. Have some wine. Stay up late. Climb a mountain. Netflix binge every once in a while. Go for a sail. Eat good food, prepared from scratch and made with love. Watch live music. Travel abroad with someone you care about. Immerse yourself in a good book. Don’t be afraid to LOVE. Go to the movies by yourself. Let your creativity shine. Move your body. Give back. Write down your thoughts. Tell your stories. Tell others’ stories. Listen.

Most importantly, I hope you look back on this time with so much love…and remember how uniquely spectacular you truly are.


Relinquishing Control (v2)

Hi, I’m Jen and I’m a Control Freak.

My good friend Mark J. recently enlightened me that “all control is fear based”.

So I asked myself…

  • What am I fearful of?
    • Failure…why, why, why??
  • Is it worse to fail, or to:
    • not achieve?
    • not try?
    • not stretch myself?
  • What would happen if I fail?
    • Will I become embarrassed?
    • Will I die (exaggeration, much!)
    • Will I learn?
    • Will I grow?

…but perhaps the worst outcome of all, the one that carries with it the most trepidation  …Will I succeed?

After soul searching, crying, and having a figurative stiff drink, I realized – no, I admitted to myself –  that I am, indeed, more afraid of success than I am of failure. But also, and maybe more importantly, I am actually afraid of both success AND failure. So I’ve just kind of been hovering – for decades – in this space of ‘not quite enough, but more than necessary’.  Wow. And also ouch.

So naturally, I bounced ideas off of my Mastermind group while my conscious mind came to terms with this new defect (NOTE: how do you add strikethrough to text in a blog?) aspect of my character.

Investigating this query led me down a path of introspection which opened my mind to a multitude of questions, including:

  • What have I been missing?
  • What do I need to fix?
  • Where did this fear come from?
  • How was it nourished?
  • What aspects or events in my life can I pinpoint to prove this realization?
  • How has Subby been reacting to events in my life?
  • How has Subby been responding to internal and external factors in my life?

REALIZATIONS…smacked me right in the face!

My thought process was this…if I can reverse engineer the events in my life (jobs, businesses, kids, marriage, relationships with family and friends, self-talk…) and identify the triggers, then that awareness, coupled with the new tools (read: not coping mechanisms) can assist Subby in creating my new blueprint – ensuring my fear of success, and my fear of failure, are banished for all eternity.

Whatever thoughts I was thinking at the time brought me the results I have had so far. Clearly, I need to disrupt my thinking. In some aspects a little more than others, so overall, my thinker is going to get a good scrubbing!

This week I really resonated with that Mark J. said about realizing and acknowledging that everything in business has helped me earn money…either I earn money now, or I learn a lesson so I can earn money later.

[Hooked on a feeling song playing in my head]…I’ve been attached to this poverty mentality for too long; its not the money, it’s the feeling I’ve been attaching to the money…how do I feel about spending $300 for an electricity bill or a speeding ticket, vs. $300 for a flight, or my vehicle, or Sara’s horse? The first is painful, yet the second gives a feeling of elated happiness (and then the DMP stuff all hit me…why Mark says we must say it with ENTHUSIASM!! Ding, ding, ding…earth to Jen! Duh Hello!

I am learning how to not continue to make the same mistakes. Regarding the blueprint builder…I have been adding boxes in the wrong order. I am leaping over the chasm of doubt that has left me subconsciously shackled to a belief system that is entirely unfounded and is frankly, quite ridiculous.


What ‘channel’ do I need to start listening to? What to say when I talk to myself…our DMP is what we need to say…LINKING = The Greatest Salesman, The Master Keys and Mark J. helps to reprogram our beliefs and blueprints, and directs Subby what to do.

  • What should I be reading?
    • The Greatest Salesman in the World by Og Mandino
    • The Master Keys by Charles F. Hanell
    • What to say when you talk to yourself
    • Think and Gro Rich by Napoleon Hill
    • The Science of Achievement by Napoleon Hill and W. Clement Stone

Realizing that every word counts when sending instructions to Subby…I now question everything including the songs on the radio (which is part of my sacrifice in order to achieve my DMP).

What, or who, do I need to focus on, and continually listen to? For starters:

  • The Strangest Secret by Earl Nightingale
  • DISRUPT YOU by Jay Samit
  • Anything by Napoleon Hill
  • Go90Grow by Mark J., World’s Laziest Networker
  • MKMMA by Mark J., World’s Laziest Networker

The magic within doesn’t flounder…it’s WITHIN.   – Mark J.

I remain a Curious Discoverer!


I promise to…

Protect the environment in which Subby can flourish. Control my reaction and emotions to situations. Keep my Positive Mental Attitude (PMA) in check. Remain open – not be too attached to anything because as long as we are attached, we can’t be present.

I refuse to carry baggage, any baggage, going forward. Mine, or anyone else’s. My new mantra…’Not my monkeys, not my circus.’

I always keep my promises.

Jennifer Hope Conrad

Disengaging Auto-Pilot (v2)

My game plan this week was to sit back and be a silent observer…of the process, the group, myself, and most importantly, my reactions! I noticed when I was hungry, when I was sad, when I was tired, and happy and mad and glad. I paid attention to the details with acute-sensitivity.

Perhaps for the first time ever, I observed as my subconscious began throwing a tantrum at the thought of new processes. I didn’t cave in or get discouraged, nor did I attempt to tell myself how great I was, or wasn’t. I simply identified the feelings in each moment, attempted to isolate the triggers, did my best to dismiss the immediate discomfort, and negotiated with myself farther than I had believed would be possible regarding with my old habits, and instead wrote it all down without editing, judging or trying to control it.

Continue reading “Disengaging Auto-Pilot (v2)”

PRESS RELEASE The Truck Stops Here | Disconnecting Your Subconscious Shackles

Jennifer Hope Conrad named New York Times’ Best-Selling Author; launches book tour

(Kaua’i, Hawaii, 14 March 2018) Jennifer Hope Conrad, Author of The Truck Stops Here, and Founder of The Cratos Group Inc., speaks with us in a rapid fire Q&A about her best-selling book and upcoming North American book tour.

The Truck Stops Here       |      Disconnecting Your Subconscious Shackles 

                                                           (a Mindset Shift, not a How-To Guide)

In addition to her new book, Jen has shared her mindset management theory on Ellen, and has a loyal – and growing – group of followers connecting with her via her weekly BLOG, YouTube channel, website and social media pages.  Jen also runs monthly webinars where people can connect farther through opt-in 1:1 coaching where Jennifer will speak with you directly, hear your story, and help you identify patterns in your own life, then work with you to create strategies to move past your own repeating challenges. Her mantra is “make new mistakes”, because, she notes, “then at least, you’ll be learning new lessons.”

Jennifer is known and respected as a thought leader specializing in horizon-expanding mindset management. This book explores her theory and gives the reader tangible evidence and insight into her thought processes – perhaps more of a thesis actually, that ‘trauma does not have to be traumatic’.

In the beginning…

“Jennifer’s originality and innovation shines through in all she does,” says Mark Januszewski, The Worlds Laziest Networker.  “Jen was in town for the Go90Grow session of Summer 2016, it was during this conference that our individual magnificence couldn’t help but collide – the synergy was unmistakably magnetic.”

Mark went on to comment, “Our first meeting was at the Kaua’i Beach Resort in summer 2016…the Fabulous Davene and I had set final preparations underway for the meet-and-greet in the ballroom.  For one night (which had a reputation of creating some #LifeChanging relationships and opportunities for our #MKMMA members) both the #MKE and #Go90Grow classes converged, personifying an evening of networking and friendship among some of the most personally aware people on the planet.”

As Jen and I settled in together at the corner table on the Lanai, Mark continued, “we reminisced of the first time that we sat in this very spot…a hot August afternoon in 2016, roasting under the mid-day sun, hearing Jen’s account of the drive into our compound and hearing her list the details of why Kaua’i is as awe-inspiring as it is, brought me back to the feeling when we were first exploring the island.  I could see that Jen’s soul was on a similar journey and I was excited to be part of the wonder that I was certain would fill her life in short order.  Jen has recounted on numerous occasions over the past two or so years how much that first conversation impacted her…while reminding me that she was careful to not attribute her success to me as ‘the guy!’, but rather as a beacon of light at the end of a long, windy, treacherous trail filled with tribulations and false starts.”

In preparation to turn the floor over to Jen’s #MasterMind team, Januszewski took one last trip down memory lane, and with a sigh of contentment stated: “Over the past year or so, Jen has often commented that from the moment of our initial discussion, her mind set to link the pieces that she described as previously missing as she launched herself towards a goal so lofty; a cause so great, that no fulcrum known to mankind could possess the strength to knock her out of balance with her burning desire.  She was committed to finally drawing out the full wonder that had been entrusted to her…and it was quite moving to see her light shine so brightly.  I knew right then that I had to get to know her story and, as they say, the rest, as they say, is history.”

And now, a word from her Fan Club…

“Her entrepreneurial vision helped navigate her research and passion through tough times – forming clever strategic alliances, introducing awe-inspiring processes and made sure she investigated every opportunity in an economy that really didn’t support new ideas, change, or…well it really didn’t support anything at all.” noted Sandra Coates, a long-time family friend.

Sandra went on to comment “We are so blessed to be among those closest to her!”  she looked over to Jen and flashed a smile so wide everyone in the room could feel the love and exclaimed “Jenny, they don’t get any better than you!” and as she finished her sentence, she approached with a hug so fierce that you’d think their lives depended on the connection of their bodies.

I remember thinking for a mere second ‘That’s what unconditional love looks like’, – sadly, as quickly as I entered that blissful state Jen’s younger sister, Melissa, effectively diminished my euphoria upon declaring prior to any audible pause…“she’s always been a great friend…she taught me how to fight, both in terms of knocking someone’s block off, and doing the same for any other problem in my way!”  I thought Jen had some kind of superpower – she never let anything get her down…her focus didn’t change regardless of friends, or situations, or the weather.  She knew she was doing the right thing or she simply didn’t do it.  Nothing would change that, her course was set.”

Melissa decreed her admiration from underneath a devilishly grin and continued with a sigh as she looked up from underneath her crook’d brow, sporting a smirk that I was positive concealed a million stories, encapsulated with a lifetime worth of trouble to boot!  After drawing one deep, staggered breath Melissa continued “Life was always an adventure when we got to experience it through Jen’s eyes!  She got herself into – and perhaps more importantly out of some of the most outrageous scenarios!!  Never a dull moment, that’s for sure…” she trailed off once again, clearly lost in memories, admission of which was only slightly acknowledged as the corner of her ivory sleeve dipped in to the side of the salsa dish, repeatedly.  “The maid is off until Tuesday so who cares…” she muttered as she nonchalantly filled another chip, again dragging her sleeve through the bowl.

“For the most part…” she continued, as she crunched the last few bites of her lime flavoured tortilla chip, “…as I saw it, life was a constant uphill battle for Jen.  To me, the majority of it seemed impossible at every turn.  I often thought she was nuts to push on – but despite the pain and discomfort and all the bulls**t, Jen never took her eye off the finish line.  She never gave up and I’m so proud of her for that!”

Sandra was sitting with her back to the sun, wearing one of those sunhats that you’d expect to see on royalty or on a cruise ship full of ladies who just sat for afternoon tea and crumpets – you know, the ones with the floppy sides.  Calmly, Sandra gently raised the infliction in her voice to match Melissa’s – it was as if they didn’t miss a single beat – almost as though one thought was flowing directly from Melissa’s head into hers “Jen’s story has touched so many people!  Not only in the 10+ years since the accident, but we’ve traced her influence all the way back to her youth.  Jenny has always been a powerful force, one not to be reckoned with – yet never once has she used her suggestion inappropriately, nor meant any harm, instead, she always applies her insights blissfully, following her gut instinct like a compass leading a lost sailor to land…it has been amazing to watch how it has grown, how she has grown and developed throughout her lifetime.” Sandra reached over the table and squeezed Jen’s forearm, prompting Jen to return her smile with admiration and contentment.

“We were thrilled when she decided and ultimately committed to capturing it all into a book” added her Mom, Debora.  “I’ll digress for a second if you will allow me, and point out that it wasn’t soon after her return from Kaua’i in 2016 that sharing this story – these experiences – became her driving force in life.  She didn’t eat, sleep or breathe if it didn’t move her closer to her definite major purpose, closer to sharing what she’s learned – in essence, closer to the reality that she is enjoying today.  Whatever you discussed with her was the missing piece.  Nothing could hold her back once she got home (not even the brutal Canadian winters).  It is so fulfilling as her Mom, and as her friend and mastermind cheerleader – perhaps most notably the president of her Fan Club – to see her sharing her message and so bravely baring her vulnerability in front of the world – and actually embracing it.  I’m learning so much from her.”

Debora continued, “We believe her thinking patterns will change the way the world responds to emotional trauma and will influence and encourage people as they find their strength.  Rejecting the societal pressure to assume a ‘victim’ role, instead, embracing the victory of finding the lesson in every situation, of learning, and ultimately, of growing…becoming… evolving!  It’s connected on so many levels – the reach is nearly immeasurable!”

Q+A | Part 1: …and also…wait, what!?!

Q: I understand that you were prompted to write this book after a pick-up truck struck you and your daughter while you were walking to your vehicle, is that correct? 

A: Yes Mark, we were fortunate to be in exactly the right spot, at the right time.

Q: Hold on…did I hear you correctly…did you just say you were in the right place at the right time?  Didn’t you just confirm that you and Sara were struck by a pick-up truck?!  Can you walk me through your thought process?

A: Certainly, my thinking is this…if we were one step further ahead we would have been pinned under the truck with no chance of survival, however if we were one step back of where we actually were, there would have been time to push Sara away, and perhaps jump away myself…which sounds ideal, however if that were the case, we wouldn’t have been able to experience all of the growth opportunities that we have had as a result of the accident and our subsequent injuries.

For instance, GlobalTV did a feature on Sara and the technology that saved her life – now we have a YouTube video, nearly 7 minutes long.  We’re YouTube sensations!  Sara was featured on the Radio-a-Thon to raise funds for the Alberta Children’s Hospital and she’s had countless post-admission visits through the hospital where she’s had the chance to bring a smile to other kids with similar injuries.  Not your run-of-the-mill experiences for any child – never mind one who was still sporting single digits in the age category!  I mean, c’mon Mark, where can you match that kind of life experience!

Q: That’s something else, Jen, quite remarkable.  I understand that one of Sara’s favorite activities with you is a form of rapid fire Q+A, correct?

A: Yes, usually she uses that tactic when trying to compare how angelic she seems compared to something undesirable (read: idiotic, neurotic, selfish or just plain stupid) that her brother just finished doing.  In her words, “Mom, quick…without thinking…who’s your favorite child right now!?!”  How she manages to get through the entire sentence without busting up is beyond me.

Q+A | Part 2: Incase you were wondering…

Mark: Alright then, let’s run through a rapid fire Q&A, Sara style…

Q: Quick…without thinking…what’s your favourite ice cream?

A: Breyers Mint Chocolate Chip…for sure!

Q: Where’s your favourite place on earth?

A: Kaua’i is a strong contender…but I’d have to say Moraine Lake, near Banff (Lake Louise), Alberta.  Only open May – August since you’ve basically got to be a Mountain Goat to get to it, but once you’re there, a lake appears almost as if out of nowhere, surrounded by majestic mountains that basically make you a better person just by being there.

Q+A | Part 3: The Preliminaries

Q: How has moving from being the child, to having children changed you?

A: I cherish the people that surround me…they have given me a safe place to be myself, and remind me daily what it means to both give and receive unconditional love.  I am grateful for them every day and love them with every ounce of my being.  It’s been said that we are the culmination of the five people we hang around with most – so since family is so important to me, it’s been a mission, and a privilege, to help shape Mike and Sara into independent thinkers.  I joke that my goal in life is to create kids who could survive the Zombie Apocalypse…knowing if they can THINK they’ll likely survive.  Although I did get swept up in the endless quick sand of the new Mom mantra of give-give-give…I now realize that putting myself first is a sign of strength, not weakness, and it actually makes me a better Mom (and person).  I’ve learned to walk the tightrope between giving too much and putting myself first with ease and grace.

Q: How do you see yourself now?

A: I am the perfect trifecta of Brains | Bravery | Beauty – all powerfully combined as a positive influence, creation impact as a role model and thought leader, and living life on purpose and of purpose!

Q: When did you first realize that you could associate any feeling(s) to any situation, at will?

A: When I was 11.   I recognized the things I was dealing with had been somewhat cyclical for the last few months (sadly, more likely the last few years) and I performed a science experiment of sorts – if I could change my reaction to the situation/events…would it have any correlation to the outcome?  I was astounded at the results, so naturally had to test my theory again…and again…and again…until eventually, I perfected my approach.  Naturally then, I had to start all over again!

With challenge comes change, and I am up to the challenge of changing!  I accept that life is a process and sometimes perfection is offset by growth.  As long as it furthers me in my evolution or understanding, or helps me exercise empathy…even those nasty ones that seem insistent on teaching me patience…I’m game for all of it.

Q: What is most important to you in your life?

A: My Personal Pivotal Needs are Liberty and Recognition for Creative Expression.

Regarding Liberty:

I want to know I’ve got all of my commitments met, with wiggle-room for surprises, while providing a very comfortable life for my family which includes fun-money for adventures and new experiences anytime we like.

Regarding Recognition for Creative Expression:

Equally as important, it means a lot to me to hear feedback about how my influence is impacting other people.  May I share a story with you about a poem I received from an old-neighbor while Sara and I were in the hospital during our 51-day hospital stay?  It meant so much to me that Mandy took the time to share her thoughts around how my words impacted her life – she went the extra mile to print, frame and present it in person.

Q: What is your most prized possession?

A: My most precious asset is the 6-inches between my own ears and its’ guard is fortified by everything I am and all that I want to accomplish.  The ability to THINK is the greatest gift I have to give to the world, but more importantly, the greatest gift I could ever leave for Mike and Sara.  Intellectual ability and constant growth are the best way I know to prepare them for a straight vertical trajectory in all areas of life and love.  Ensuring they have the skills to think independently, setting an example by showing them what it looks like to be true to themselves, is and forever will be, my chief aim in life.  It will long survive me and become my lasting legacy.

Q: Why are you so committed to this cause?

A: I have been gifted with abilities to follow my core instinct, exercise empathy and possess vision greater than myself.  When combined with my unshakeable self-confidence, life has taught me to embrace the impact I have on others.  I put these gifts to work for the greater good, sharing my mindset through inspirational speaking and writing.  The whole give more, get more theory – you know!

 Q: How do you nourish your mindset to keep you on track?

A: I am wholly responsible for my thoughts, feelings, and actions.  I exercise mind over matter, because if I don’t mind it doesn’t matter.  While I am not perfect, I am pure, humble, kind and empathetic.  While remaining logical and realistic with a birds-eye view, I remain unbiased and free.  I remain committed to upholding the discipline and positive self-talk required to continuously ignite the fire in my belly and propel myself towards the purpose I was born to fulfill.  The Think and Grow Rich habits have changed the very DNA of my thoughts and as a result, of my actions, and are forming the foundation of my personal philosophy.  I wholeheartedly welcome these principles to impact my life in stupendous proportions.

Q: Why are people so attracted to you?

A: I resonate at a very high frequency which attracts people like a beacon (of HOPE). People comment they like themselves best when they’re with me and wonder when they can see me again.  I am honored when people state they simply want to be around me, to ‘hear me think’, to catch a glimpse inside my head…it makes me feel like I can fly!  It is so great being me!!

Mark: Well, your Jen mo-jo is already rubbing off on us around here.  I can certainly see what all the hype is about!

Q+A | Part 4: Because Science, that’s why!

Alright, that gives us some background into why you think the way that you do…now, let’s dive a bit deeper into the science and psychology behind why you think the way you do.

Q: What is the premise of your book?

A: Many people go through their lives being held hostage to the subconscious shackles that are implanted as a result of a traumatic event at some point in their lives.  Many people don’t realize (or refuse to acknowledge) that they are making decisions in their adult lives based on an event that occurred in childhood or their teenage years that they attached a negative feeling to, without any regard for the FACT that the feeling we attach to those events, perhaps, holds more weight than the event itself.

mandy-nickerson-poemI’ve learned

(Dedicated to Jennifer and Sara for their strength and courage)

I’ve learned from my friend

And her hospital stay

STOP and smell the roses

Take time out to play

I’ve learned from her fight

Her pain and her tears

Life is for living

Not hiding from our fears

I’ve learned not to rush

But to simply slow down

Life is too short

To be running around

I’ve learned to smile more

And warmly say ‘Hi’

To help brighten the day

Of a stranger passing by

I’ve learned it’s not money

But my family who come first

My life isn’t that bad

Others have it much worse

I’ve learned from her story

And her little girl’s too

Now I pass this poem on

So you can learn too.

Q: Can you provide an example of when and how you implemented this logic?

A: Joann Mundin MD, FRCPC, MSc, Psychiatrist noted:

“I believe that Sara’s parents took very appropriate steps, perhaps without knowing it, to protect Sara from the development of PTSD following the collision.  This is because her parents made a deliberate decision to expose Sara to newspaper articles and details regarding the collision.  They also honoured Sara’s request to visit the site of the collision upon discharge from the hospital, which Sara did in a wheelchair even while the storefront was still boarded-up.  I believe that Sara’s early and repetitive exposure to the events of the collision while she was still in the hospital was a form of Exposure and Response Prevention which served to prevent Sara from going into full-fledged Posttraumatic Stress Disorder specifically related to events of the collision”.

Q: How do you override – or train – your brain in times of intense fear or immense anguish; how do you always find a positive silver lining?

A: That’s a great question!  Allow me to answer it in three parts.

First, I believe in the old saying; ‘To whom much is given, much is expected’. I’ve been told that my fearlessness is inspiring in EPIC proportions.  My life has been very blessed and I’ve lived a life that many would envy – I mean, many would fear – I mean, it’s perfect for me, regardless of what anyone thinks or doesn’t think.  Every step has lead me to where, and who, I am today.  I wouldn’t change a single thing about my life.

Secondly, I discovered that that fear and excitement trigger nearly identical neurons in the human brain?   Did you know that?!  When I realized this, it became apparent that I could mentally frame new experiences with open-minded excitement and run towards them, rather than becoming their victim…therefore I set out to conquer my fear and insisted that instead, I claim victory in all experiences and challenges that life presents.

Finally, I recognized very early on in life that repeat experiences are an opportunity to make different decisions – and sometimes, new mistakes.  Persistence towards my DMP does not recognize failure, instead by default, I question ‘What is this teaching me?’.  What is the lesson?  De Ja Vu’s are simply put a reminder that I didn’t learn the lesson last time, and I need to pay attention and take a closer look at the situation and evaluate – ahead of time if possible – how I’m reacting, why, and what my other options are.

Q+A | Part 5: Have Brains…Will travel.

Q: What’s next for you, Jen? 

A: My mindset invites unfathomable opportunity, while my humility allows for maximum growth so I know the doors are open and opportunities abound.  I have accepted and embraced the changes to my memory and speech patterns and have embraced HIS master plan for my destiny.  My greatest DESIRE is to give back, I am evolving daily and learning to govern my actions accordingly.

I TRUST that continuing to be a good person, doing the right things for the right reasons, and remaining steadfast in my positive mental attitude…I can TRUST that my Liberty; financial freedom will come as a result of getting right with myself and letting my song out for everyone to embrace, or not, and either is quite fine with me.  I am the master of my own economic fate.  I am the governor of my destiny!  The world is as I see it.

I’ll continue to write…spend more time in a hammock…Autonomy has always been on my side…going to continue getting right with myself so I can help others get right with themselves, as well.  This experience has been so enlightening.  The more I learn, the more I realize I don’t know!   I am a life-long student of growth, performance and self-reflection. I remain a curious discoverer!

Q: In 10 words or less, how would you sum up your life…despite everything that life has thrown at you?

A: I am very blessed and highly favored!