My JENNERGY | MKE Year 3 Week 11

I realize now that it’s really more how I am IN the Universe, rather than what I am TO the Universe that matters most.

My destiny is a lot more about the Universe’s plan for me, for my life, rather than my plan for the Universe…

The brilliance of the Master Key System, especially this week [WEEK5], confirms that the more I read, the more evidence I discover to support living by a code rather than a direct course of action.

My entire life…I’ve heard, read, and really felt for that matter, that ‘the Universe has a plan for me’. I’ve received encouragement to ‘live my greatness’, yet I’ve drawn a blank when trying to articulate what that ‘greatness’ actually is.

The link that I realized this past week is that I was understanding what I was hearing incorrectly – I was trying to do the Universe’s work…I was trying to be the message and the messenger. I should have been acting as a channel for the message.

Same old thinking...same old results

As Haanel states in 5-11:

“But if we have stored away nothing but courageous thought, if we have been optimistic, positive, and have immediately thrown any kind of negative thought on the scrap heap, have refused to have anything to do with it, have refused to associate with it or become identified with it in any way, what then is the result?

Our mental material is now of the best kind; we can weave any kind of material we want; we can use any colour we wish; we know that the texture is firm, that the material is solid, that it will not fade, and we have no fear, no anxiety concerning the future; there is nothing to cover, there are no patches to hide.”

Truth be told, the only thing I’ve ever really known as a sure and real thing, is that I wanted to be HAPPY. Aside from that I couldn’t have articulated from the seat of my soul – my Solar Plexus – what I wanted out of life, who I am, or what I can bring to the world. For as long as I can remember, I’ve kind of been beating myself up because I haven’t truly been able to answer the questions, among others:

What do you want to do?

Who are you?

What do you want to become?

Who are you, and what do you really want?

Really annoying…because I’m really smart and I should be able to reverse-engineer this kind of stuff. How on earth I could pigeon-hole all of my wonderment into only one thing has never made any sense to me. And I’m smart…like just shy of MENSA smart but this one embarrassingly simple questions have evaded me for decades. Seriously?!?

Haanel goes on in 5-12 to connect this though, namely:

“These are psychological facts; there is no theory or guess work about these thinking processes; there is nothing secret about them; in fact, they are so plain that every one can understand them. The thing to do is to have a mental house-cleaning, and to have this house-cleaning every day, and keep the house clean. Mental, moral and physical cleanliness are absolutely indispensable if we are to make progress of any kind.”

Seems I’ve always had a hard time choosing just one thing, or narrowing down to only one path. Historically, I’ve had difficulty answering those questions, perhaps because I’m so multi-passionate?

I’ve mistakenly associated ‘living my greatness’ with ‘being some specific thing’…

… a writer, a mom, a servant leader, an employee, an entrepreneur…or with specific traits like bravery, tenacity, strength, honour, resilience, persistence…insanity. I haven’t had a messy house, it’s simply not been kept clean everyday. I haven’t taken my gifts and put them forth with purpose.

I’ve enjoyed everything, everything that I’ve done in my life, which is a long list; varied from accounting to marketing, to driving, to travel planning…there hasn’t been any one thing that defines me…I’m just one of those people that’s blessed with a varied skill set. I’m talking permanent Sunshine and Rainbows kind of stuff. I’m a mom and can throw a kick-ass party, I’m a baker, I’m funny and well spoken, I like to proofread and I’m pretty good at finances, I love to travel, and I don’t have a green thumb but have learned to be ok with it, I’ve got above-average communication skills and I make a mean banana bread, and I love my kids, hard!

I’m all about being HAPPY. Spreading Happiness. Sharing HOPE.

My best friend is a paramedic, and she has known she wanted to be a paramedic since she was young, I admire that dedication and rooted knowledge. She’s been a paramedic forever – that’s her identity, that’s what she does, that’s her thing, and that’s her brightness the world. I love that – I love it so much.

Yet when I talk to her, she loves that I don’t have just one thing, so she says I can do everything, and is in awe that everything I touch turns to gold. She thinks it’s amazing that I know how to do so many things, because [as she puts it], she only knows how to one thing – paramedic. Beauty truly is in the eye of the beholder. [Isn’t she beautiful!!]

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Our life story isn’t defined by the things that happen to us, instead how we handle it. The good and the bad.

And it’s high-time that I harness the full breadth of my uniqueness. Rather than holding myself back as I have been [by giving into my ghosts, allowing resistance to be the governor of my destiny] – I’m allowing myself to celebrate it, embrace it.

My gift to the world is HOW I think.

How I react.

How I share my brightness.

Blissfully ignorant.

Full of empathy. True joy.

Edifying everyone…building up their greatness, helping them embrace it.

How I am is part of my DNA.

I am so unique. So special. Insightful, pure, honest, empathetic, compassionate, funny and kind.

I can be what I will to be.

My Jennergy is the essence, the heartbeat, of all that I am

All I need do is reach out and claim it. Claim my greatness. The world is counting on it!

Infinite life flows through me, because I earnestly desire happiness for everyone.

I hereby assert my claim over my unique trifecta of Brains | Beauty | Bravery and the more I put it into practice, the deeper I feel my connection to the Universe, urging me to continue the cycle and share it more and more.

I promise to manifest Liberty+Recognition for Creative Expression and living the Law of Compensation; giving more without the expectation of reciprocity.

…BTDubs, this question mark has been hanging around my home for about 7-years – sometimes stuffed in a closet, sometimes hung in a prominent place…depending where I am in life and whether or not I can answer the question. When I feel I can’t answer it, I stuff it away – or is it the other way around?… I promise you all right here and now, never again am I going to take it away from my daily sight lines, if I do, I give permission for one of my top 5 favourite humans – AA – to take it from me and hang it in his own home!

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Thank you for joining me on my journey through the Master Key Experience…your comments fire me up and encourage me to continue Blogging. Thank you for that! I am very Great-Ful!

Jen

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