Would it be alright with you if I share a personal story?
It takes place on an enchanted island and as with all great LOVE stories, there are dragons, and best friends who giggle until it hurts … but most of all, it’s about falling in LOVE! And everybody knows that LOVE lets us see ordinary things in an extraordinary way.
But first, a little back of the story…
Looking back on my life before MKE, it was as though I had spent my previous 11,111 days on this planet on auto-pilot. I hadn’t yet clued in that I had been trapped in survival-mode; a prison of my own making. The Dragons keeping close watch to ensure my subconscious shackles were secure [sadly, I am the Dragon].
You see, back then, me and my life-goals…we weren’t that tight. I’d done a pretty good job of repeatedly proving that the life I was living wasn’t getting me anywhere other than exactly where I already was. My current trajectory wasn’t going to help me reach my hopes and dreams, mostly because I didn’t even have a clear understanding of what those hopes and dreams were in the first place.
Where’s the disconnect?
As kids, we embrace valiant dreams and celebrate the grandeur of dreaming big…of becoming Astronauts, or Presidents, or Rocket Scientists – living our own truths with adventurous delight from inside Macaroni Spaceships that we’re certain will transport us to the Moon every day after school. Yet somewhere along the way, we abandon our innocence and lose sight of our innate greatness. We grow older, but we forget to actually live. We take on the weight of societal expectations; abandoning our backyard dreams for some version of ‘Keeping up with Joneses’…
Life was blah. Work was blah. Friendships were hard because life was blah. You get it. Sad. Perhaps even pathetic. Boring for sure.
Without warning or apology, the unremarkable days
morphed into unremarkable nights,
which morphed back into more unremarkable days.
…the days became weeks
…the weeks became months
… and the months became years
until the years themselves faded into a
c o m p l a c e n t b l u r o f m e d i o c r i t y.
What had I been doing with my life??
When did I become comfortable with stagnation?
Why did I stop believing I deserved more?
Did I have any confidence left…or was I drained out of my through the ever-losing battle that exists when raising teenagers?
Until this one time, in 2015 – it hit me: If I could believe in Santa for like 10-years, why couldn’t I believe in myself for 5-minutes? And so began my journey back towards myself…
Introspection led me to a friend who aimed me towards becoming a self-directed thinker, and in late Spring 2015, we embarked on a 13-day adventure-of-a-lifetime together to Kaua’i, Hawaii.
Arriving a few days before the start of the business conference, I kicked off my flip flops, grabbed my Maui Jim’s and a good book, and headed for the beach…my only agenda: to spend time taking in the wonderment and beauty of Hawaii [it had been an unusually cold and long winter in Calgary, Canada…by the way, when people in Calgary use the term ‘pearly whites’ we aren’t referring to our teeth – but rather our legs … nearly transparent and pale as a ghost from being hidden beneath layers of clothing -24/7 while trying to prevent hypothermia]…but forgive me, I digress…
Turns out, the Master Key Experience Live Event was wrapping up, and as luck would have it, some of the residual ‘awe’ – in my opinion: the essence of the event – rubbed off on me and that’s when everything changed. True story!!
As the conference began, I consciously set aside my past experiences, my bias, and what I thought I already knew, and committed to participating with an open heart and an open mind, and to simply let the event do its thing. Trusting and believing that some of the magic and energy I felt radiating from people who had attended the Master Key Master Mind Alliance Live Event, would also extend into the course I was taking, seeing as the same hosts were facilitating both events…and man, was I ever in for a treat!!
Attending conference by day, and exploring the island by night changed my life. For the first time in a very long time I remembered who I was. A clarity descended upon me as I observed – silently, and with complete childlike wonder, as the true Jen lurched herself to the foreground from deep down inside me where I had been, quite accidentally, keeping her captive. I discovered more about myself in 2-weeks than I had during my previous 34 trips around the sun.
I was able to understand more clearly, and to my astonishment, effortlessly. Up until that very moment, everything had been a struggle. This re-introduction to my true and purest self annihilated the introverted, reserved, hesitant versions of self that I cloaked myself in while trying to ‘fit in’ with society. The clarity simultaneously silenced my fears of the unknown, yet was successful at reassuring me that everything was going to be alright. Better than alright actually. I was finally free.
I fell in love with the person I’m meant to be…
Calm, yet bursting with excitement
Surrendered, yet in complete control
Responsible, yet free-spirited
Daring and brave, yet grounded and realistic
Humble, yet confident
Sweet, yet strong
And as I shed my many false cloaks and embraced the true me…I noticed that I became one with the wonder of Hawaii with this group of spectacular human beings; and for this I feel very blessed and highly favoured.
The sensation of being alive suddenly became completely intoxicating. It was as if I was experiencing everything for the very first time…
The kiss of the ocean breeze felt warmer as it sailed against my skin
The food tasted richer – I could sense the nourishment delivered throughout my body
Hugs from strangers reached right down into the forgotten depths of my being
Emotions resonated directly into my essence; into my soul
My brain was forging new neuro pathways – I could literally feel myself evolving
I could hear and feel the gears spinning as I turned my back to years of cement and revered in the delight of chipping away at it. It was as if a lifetime worth of passion, intense desires and enlightenment descended upon me in an instant, like a ray of sunshine bursting through the clouds on a rainy day. I grasped concepts as I never had before, as if the veil of confusion had been lifted and tossed aside.
Every cell in my body felt like it was on fire! As though I had been selected and blessed directly by the Gods, and was being escorted to my bliss on the wings of angels.
I felt so alive – wildly excited to learn and to grow and to evolve..I was not only willing to, but eager to let down my guards and allow my sun to shine brightly. Finally, I was able to just, be me.
LOVE lets us see ordinary things in an extraordinary way
The course that began the following September – the Master Key Experience – taught me that to find these answers I need do nothing more than SIT – to cut through the clutter, disperse the noise, and truly listen to the Beautiful Silence. It was better than having all the answers…I had connected with who I am and why I’m here, and I knew that I AM the answers…I didn’t need to ‘find’ them because they were already inside me.
And it was this life changing adventure that truly taught me about LOVE. Surrounded by like minded people, eager and willing to support me along my journey as they too progressed along their own. These were my people. Here, I
felt was at home.
I discovered a few valuable life lessons that have literally changed my DNA; changing how I think, erasing old blueprints, opening my mind to the possibility of new possibilities:
- That the LOVE for myself is the foundation for all other LOVE
- That how I see the world changes when looking thru the lens of LOVE [empathy, compassion, understanding, tolerance, patience]
- In order to be loved how I urned to be loved, I needed to first learn how to LOVE myself
Thank you so much for joining me on this adventure. I’d love to hear about your LOVE too!
Curious what moved me this time last year?